Dallin has been gone for nine months now. The first six months I felt every second of his absence. Gradually new emotions surfaced with the heartache. I go through phases of joy, peace, fear, loneliness. Today the theme is loneliness. I can't help but wish that he was here to hold me. I feel like he can look right inside me and see the things that no one else will. I wish he was here to just rub my back and bring me the peace I find in his love. People say that you can't know what love is when you are sixteen. But Dallin and I have learned together. Through laughter and tears. Sorrow and joy. He is the piece of me that has been missing and I can't wait for him to come home and put me together.